Lama tak update kan? mmm, macam busy sgt2 sampai takde masa. yes, it's true.. I'm not going to update anything about the gathering. Nope. At least, at the momment la. I've so many things nak cerita. But, still not in the mood yet.
Yesterday, Qaira got her first ever F.E.V.E.R since she was born. Being a mother, of course la I rasa sedih especially when I saw her terbatuk2, flu and so on la. Especially bila tido, hidung dia tersumbat and crancky all the times sebab susah nak bernafas! Well my dear Qaira, if Mama ada kuasa transfer sakit Qaira tue pd Mama, dah lama Mama transfer.. so that u didn't suffer to face all this things! Sian dia. But, to be in reality, u need to face all this. Inilah kehidupan. Kita akan rasa sakit, sihat dan mcm2 lagi. Pity u my lil girl.
Aha, another things to share. Qaira dah ada 3 batang gigi skrg! 2 kat bawah, 1 kat atas. And of course this is a strong reason Qaira rasa tak selesa. Semua serba tak kena. Me and husband sometimes pun pening tak tahu nak buat apa. But being a parents, we need to calm her every seconds la..
Mmm, oh ya! Guess what! My weight ticker dah tak update dah. Reason being, I'm not loosing any weight sejak kebelakangan nie. I gained 3 kg lagi adalah!!!! Macam penat jer I jaga makan for sebulan setengah and lost 5kg but now I gained 3kg back!!!!! Semua sebab I takde masa nak tengok diri sendiri! Ok, I should not give this as a reason. i know. But, seriously, I'm really TIRED!!!!!!!!
Sekarang nie., serious la.. my life busy, busy, busy. I have no time for myself. Oh please dun said I didnt know how to manage my time! I'm not that type of person. But if u in my place, then u will know how busy I am. Starting from November until now, can u believe we have no time together for every weekend!!! Jgnlah cakap on weekday. Itu hari biasa and we have such a limited time utk bersama2. I mean, masa utk kami bertiga bersama!!! I need to fulfill all the invitations from relatives, frens ...or many ocassion yg memerlukan kami!!! U know what I mean.. i tak boleh type semua di sini. But now, i'm kinda stress with myself! I'm not blaming anyone. But i guess, I'm too nice with other ppl sampaikan diri sdiri pun tak tertengok!
Lagi.... my surroundings! Always put me into stress.. Stress yg bermacam2.. I hope I can explain all this one by one.. but, it is impossible la! Huh! I wish I could run from all this! And really! I need holiday! A vacation for me and my family! I wish I cound but I know, it is still impossible right now!!!!!
Argghhh.. tolonglah masa! Berhentilah sekejap! bagi aku sikit ruang supaya boleh bergerak dan masa yg secukupnya utk diri sendiri. Bila agaknya wahai masa. Aku boleh jadi baik pada diri sendiri!